HELP!!!! what is wrong with me, I love feeling awkward?

Okay...I have a really weird dilemma. I have this weird thing where I LOVE feeling awkward. I love everything about it. I love the tension and uncomfortableness. It feels so good to me. And I go out of my way to make situations awkward. This has been a huge problem to me....l've lost so many friends and just have a bad reputation because of it. But I can't help it, it's like I need to do it. Just a few minutes ago I talked to my parents about their sex life and asked questions. I don't know if it's that I like making OTHERS feel awkward, or me feel awkward? I love putting people in awkward situations and I love being put in them too. I know this is really strange but when other boys are peeing in the urinals...I look at them so they feel awkward and I feel awkward. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE the feeling. I get this rush from it. How do I stop this???? I tried telling my parents about it and they just laughed but no one understands. What should I do??? please help it is ruining my life i have tried so many times to stop but It's a compulsion