I've lost something important to me?

i know i sound absolutely insane, but please just listen. i just lost my lucky hair tie. firstly i suffer from compulsions, these specific hair ties had a 'meaning' to them and now that they're gone i feel as though all this bad sh!t is going on, i'm seeing all my unlucky numbers and it's because i don't have the hair ties i think. i have other lucky things, and if any one of them went missing i'd loose it, i feel 'lost' now that they're gone, i don't feel safe anymore 'not like someone's out to get me. lol, just that the hair ties were like a security blanket', i know it's something like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, i've never been diagnosed although i probably should. i've had these compulsions ever since my grandfather died, 3 years ago. Can someone help me find my hair tie. i last left it on my table next to my bed and now it's gone!